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[ It would be both easier and phenomenally more dangerous if Charles could just read his mind but-- perhaps even if he were a Legilimens, all he'd see would be fabrications of innocuous thoughts, constructed in his mind like an illusionist might in the physical world.

So. ]

Yet to be determined.

[ He looks away for a bit. Takes another drink. Looks back. ]

There are four houses at the school where I teach. Seven years. There are currently between eight and fifteen students in each year, in each house. Around three hundred students on a campus that's stood for hundreds of years, built to board a thousand or more children and staff. I was made head of house when I was twenty-one because I was, and currently remain, the only alumni of that house employed.

[ Decimated. ]

That boy - Harry - is the product of what he says is the end. The true end. Whatever dark magic or upsetting items come through the jumps for him, I want it gone, and I don't want anyone else aboard trying to make it their bloody business.

Charles Xavier, [ he supplies, at the end of that, a fleeting smile that is gone by the time he takes a longer pull of beer. ]

I'm sorry. I hadn't any idea. What conversations I'd had with Harry hadn't gotten that far.

[ Severus inclines his head. Yes, you, Charles Xavier. But he doesn't think the other man will get his feelings hurt and he isn't the type of person to not say it so-- it's fine. ]

Self-evidently, I can't imagine why they would. [ It's not pleasantly conversational, this talk of war. ] Sirius Black was a schoolmate of mine. He remembers my interest in dark magic, and he remembers that dark magic is primarily aligned with the wizards who've tried to commit genocide.

But he has not seen war.

[ Easy to fluster, difficult to offend, Charles only listens. ]

Politics. Right. I thought it more personal.

It is. Sometimes. Without politics he would still hate me and I would probably still hate him. But he can't say he hates me because I was poor, and ugly, and got better marks than him, and was a convenient outlet for his violent tendencies before I learned how to defend myself. He has to say 'I hate Severus because he's probably actually evil'.

[ This is a lot. At once. And it is very personal. Severus says it all completely evenly, almost detached. ]

You know I'm going to ask about Erik now.

[ Because fuck. He drains his beer. ]

[ Charles has enough heart -- quite a lot of heart, to be fair -- to look vaguely abashed for pressing. The lines at his eyes deepen but he doesn't break eye contact, drinking it all in without offering comment.

A thin smile for that last part. Because Ah, of course.

Charles drinks too, without finishing it. ] Quite a bit of a different situation. We're friends, for one thing.

[ Severus does not want to say any of this, but it isn't a deep dark secret. Everyone at home knows. He's not going into his role in the war - and he won't. Sirius Black has no bloody idea no matter how much of a fit he throws, and Severus has the ultimate trump card anyway: the Boy Who Lived is here and apparently trusts him. So bugger off, ship.

It is important he maintains connections. He knows Charles has the potential to be a very useful one, and so he's going to do this. He likes him just fine, it's just that Severus doesn't really understand how normal friendships or even normal acquaintances work. He is startlingly perceptive and capable of great empathy but he does it from an outside perspective, making him useful in some situations but totally lost in others.

Which is why he just tilts his head at that opener. 'Friends' is a strange concept, but even he doesn't think that's how it's supposed to work. ]

[ ...yep, more beer. ]

There's a context too. I'll probably repeat myself from things I've told you before, so bear with me.

Myself, and my sister, Raven, were the only mutants I knew about for a long time. This remains the case for many of us, and it was the case, as well, for Erik, who had no one. We ran into each other during a fraught moment -- I was assisting the CIA with tracking down a man named Shaw who presented a threat and was aligned with other mutants. Erik was on a similar path, except he meant to murder this man, but would have gotten himself killed had I not intervened, and shown him my own nature.

[ He's being similarly generous in his information, but there will be retained a hard line, where he will not spill Erik's personal background to Severus, his motivations. Just enough, to make things clear. ]

We worked together for a time, finding other mutants, and tracking Shaw. I helped him with his own ability, and I suppose we had an understanding, as well as a debate. I sought to integrate ourselves, openly, into human society. He has a great mistrust for them. A dangerous one. But I thought we wanted the same thing, in the end.

Edited 2014-03-24 07:10 (UTC)

[ Charles hasn't actually told him very much. He's mentioned things, and Severus has observed him discussing things with other people, but he hasn't shared personally - and Severus hasn't asked. Not out of a respect for his privacy, but because it hasn't occurred to him to do so. Not really. His disregard for other people despite being someone who's given up his life for the greater good is kind of shit.

Maybe he's learning. ]

But you don't.

[ This sounds familiar, even if being friends is not. ]

No.

[ Which obviously came as a disappointment, for Charles takes another pull of beer, deep enough that their second round is coming up shortly. He turns the glass between his fingers at a fidget. ]

We found Shaw trying to instigate a third world war. We stopped him, and Erik killed him, and then naval battalions of two major and opposing powers came together to wipe out our little band of mutants, Shaw's men and mine alike. Erik saved us all.

I was forced to stop him when he went to decimate them in return, which really would have kick started a third world war, only mutantkind would have been at the centre of it. We weren't trying to hurt each other, you understand, but we wanted different things, for ourselves, for other mutants.

And then [ he tips his emptied beer glass ] there was an accident. A CIA agent was trying to help me, and she shot at him. He deflected a bullet that left me paralysed from the waist down. That did stop him.

[ He finishes his beer. Frinkle forehead at the taste and amount all at once. ]

I was healed via the Tranquility, evidently. But we've been tense ever since.

[ ... Severus summons more beer into both their glasses. ]

Tense.

[ Is certainly a word for all of that. Distantly, he wonders why he didn't ask before (this has been covered), but he also wonders if Charles would have told him all that before now. Merlin. It's insane. But so is Wizarding Britain, so what can he say? It seems like they're at the very start of something but-- Severus is only twenty-four. He's not Albus, ready to preach from on high. He forces himself to think of it smaller, to narrow his field of vision to Charles alone. It's uncomfortable to do so but altogether fine, and then he thinks of himself and Lily and--

He takes a drink. ]

This is not an ideal, stress-free setting for reconciliation.

[ Oh my god magic beer. Fortunately, Charles' mood is keyed down enough that the most he does is give a delighted grin and draw the glass back to himself, testing coolness against the palm of his hand. He settles his chin into the palm of his other one. ]

It's a bit odd, actually. Because you're quite right, but at the same time, it puts everything on a bit of a freeze, doesn't it. Our time has ceased to progress. The injury that so neatly cleaved our allegiance is healed, and sometimes Erik acts as if all else is healed, and sometimes I'm inclined to let him. Because we're in a giant horror tin can floating in fucking space.

[ --stated mildly. Sips beer. ]

Ah, well. Perhaps the worst either of us can expect of ours is heckling. That'd be good.

[ Severus gives him a thin smile that is neither full disagreement nor flippant agreement. He's a little opaque about it; Sirius has done worse already. But he doesn't feel like acknowledging it.

Until it's useful for him to do so. ]

Are you from about the same time, then?

[ And because he can't read Snape's mind, this goes entirely missed. ]

Yes. Some few months after we saw each other that day. Rather glad we didn't have your sort of time disparity to grapple with in the immediate moment.

It is surreal. Harry, strangely, is easier to deal with. I've only heard of him, the child of people I went to school with but never knew after. [ W O W THAT IS A REALLY SELECTIVE RETELLING but anyway ] Black, though.

[ .. Is still a teenager? Kind of? Severus has no idea how to react to that; it's obvious animosity is still there on his end, but it's aimed at an adult. Not this obnoxious brat. ]

I noticed you have a student of your own, lurking around?

[ The half-formed rueful smile is immediate. ]

Alex Summers, yes. Security as well. Odd scenario -- he's been here for a solid two years, which is its own disparity. Especially considering there's been multiple Charleses come through the doors since. Two, by my count.

[ He rubs his face, dragging beer closer. ]

Set us both up with some rather unfair expectations, I think.

[ Thanks Obama. He sips some magic beer. ]

I haven't been particularly interested in delving very far into the happenings of a theoretical other me. Or a future me.

[ It's not magic beer. It's normal space beer, and it's the beer from the bar they're in, he just moved it.

(Lemurs.) ]

Apparently almost two years ago, or by what I can figure must be about that long, I was here. An older me [ he sounds like he's reciting words in a foreign language he doesn't speak, at that ], after my death.

[ Severus drinks some more magic beer. ]

Perhaps Security should just deal with security and leave the rest of us be.

[ Dicks. ]

[ There's a minute widening of his eyes at that news, caught in not being certain of how to respond before Snape is low-level sniping at the Security taskforce. I'm sorry seems like it'd be a stupid thing to say. Everyone dies, eventually.

He drinks some magic beer too. ]

Their jobs must be frustratingly uphill, we mustn't be too judgemental. Forever corralling an ungrateful flock of surly captives from getting themselves killed.

--Brink of death, surely.

I've never put much stock in any powers that be. [ Governments, authority figures, self-proclaimed leaders. He'll accept accolades as it suits him because he understands political games and he values his cards in that game, but he still finds most of it offensively stupid. ] In theory what they're doing is an admirable effort but in practice...

[ He shrugs. They're giving literally anyone access to training, authority, and deadly weapons. Severus thinks it's awful and has zero respect for any of them - and he would feel the same even if Sirius wasn't involved. His shrug also seems to cover the 'brink of death' comment; he didn't say it to try and shock Charles or get pity, even though there's no other reason for a normal person to say something that morbid. In his head it's more like he's sharing because that's what people do, right? And the idea of his own mortality doesn't frighten him. He hasn't said that to anyone besides Charles, and he hasn't even asked Harry for details - Harry might not even know that Severus caught all that and made the (glaringly obvious in his opinion) correct connections. ]

But you don't want to be involved running the ship anyway.

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