[ --that gets a disbelieving scoff, but that gaze is held all the same. It's easier to just allow it go pass by. Yes, fine, obviously. But maybe he wants an answer to his question. ]

If you didn't think the pain is something to warrant desperation [ is restated, clear, sharp ] regardless as to how personally fascinating you may or may not find it, then why are you treating it seriously.

I already know your work ethic. That's not what I'm asking.